YOU ARE THE WIND THAT KEEPS ME GOING, WITHOUT YOU, I CANNOT FIND THE STRENTH TO MOVE ON... YOU ARE THE LIGHT THAT LIGHT UP MY PATH, WITHOUT YOU, I WILL BE LOST IN THE DARK... YOU ARE LIKE ICE CREAM ON A HOT DAY, THE FIRE DURING WINTER, THE SOFA AFTER A TIRING DAY, THE WATER DURING A DROUGHT, THE CANDLE IN THE NIGHT, THE DRY LAND DURING A FLOOD...

I know I need to let go... but I can't... I know I need to forget... But its not that easy... I kept holding on to the rope... everytime I lift a finger away from the rope, the other fingers will grip on harder... making letting go seem impossible... Is this going to take forever?? I don't think I will be able to take the fall... the ground seem so far away...

Woah... not bad not bad.... Jang Geun Suk is my husband, Kexin is my bf, Esta is my brother, Claudia is my sister, Amos is my father, who wants to be my mum??? hahas ^^

Okay, I think my teacher is weird... he came into my house with two red packets, then he sat at the table and counted the money inside the red packet... then he keep talking to himself, which freaked me out abit... then when he started teaching me physics, he keep murmuring things to himself, then he say the textbook is wrong, then I say "but my teacher told me that this is correct" then he said :"no no no, your physics teacher is wrong! Who is he? What is his age?" then I told him the details, then he stared at the wall and murmured something to himself... wth..

thank you, for making me realize, that if we want to do something, do it today, for tomorrow may be too late...

fear struck me like crazy last night... I just realize how stupid I have been all this time... I regretted, but its too late... I just realize how foolish I have been... But what is the use of feeling all this now??? Just remebered what he last said to me... and its haunting me again and again... even though its just one word... but its enough to drive me crazy... but its impossible to turn back time... his love, care and concern is soon fading away... I know that he is hiding it too, the real feeling hidden deep within... but it is impossible to dig it out, for he has hidden it so nicely, that soon, it may not be possible to dig it out again... Last night I just keep telling myself to forget and go to sleep... but all these have been giving me sleepness nights... he think I didn't realize the change... but its so obvious, who wouldn't???

Wad the toot sia... after reading her post, I feel damn angry for her now... okay, maybe she isn't angry, but she is sad, but I am angry... I just hate guys that end relationships like that... I have seen so many guys like this... and I am sick and tired of them...

jeez... A relationship that lasted for 2years, finally ended =.= wad the shit man... not talking bout me, talking bout my fren... haiz... suan le la... wang le ta ba...

Okay, today is a nice day, cos I have no homework, so I can rest... hehe... Mum bought sushi, I finished one whole box... lols... cannot blame me la, I didn't eat lunch so very hungry, hahas...

the next few paragraphs are abit no link to what I write on the top... so just bear with it, cos I am feeling very vexed, so I am typing down my thoughts....

I just don't know what to think... Everyday is getting tougher... but when I am with my friends, I always tend to forget this... I hate this feeling, this feeling that I am lost... haiz... Can't really write out what actually happened... I will try to forget about it... running away again... dad, mum, not helping...

You have done your part by walking along this path with me... From this point onwards, let go of my hands, its time for me to take the other half of the journey alone...

How does it feel like having a sister??? Someone that could sit with you andf listen to your woes??? I am sure it will be wonderful to have someone able to sit there ad listen to your rants... Now I badly need someone beside me now... And I have just found the person... thanks, you are like a friend and a sister to me, listening to my nonsense, and allowing me to scream and shout like nobody's business...

Have you ever had the feeling that someone is of a close relation to you? Like a parent, cousin, sibling?? Someone who is an outsider, but who treats you like a daughter...I know a person like this.... I never get a chance to know why is it like this... I never knew the right answer, I dun wana know, I kept trying to find a place in the shadows to hide, hoping nothing will ever happen, but you will always find me wherever I am, and pick me up... you never get angry with my nonsense... thank you for trying to help me throughout my teenage years... thank you for being a 2nd parent to me... thank you for being my parent when my real parents are too busy to do the job...

yes... I agree, Love can do strange things to you... Love can make a man do foolish things... Love can change anything...

do you even know what is happening??? Do u even know the truth??? If you don't, don't get angry with me without reasons.... your reasons are your own perceptions... you duno the truth yet... I am NOT ALLOWED to tell the truth anyway... you want to know the truth?? Wait till I graduate from Secondary School, I can sense your unhappiness... you dun need to hide... And I tink I know why... I guess maybe I let out abit more of clue to let you ponder on it... anyways... the truth is not clear, dun make ur own conclusions.... wait, I will let out the truth someday... now is not the right time... I will be shot if I tell the truth... you woudn't like being in my shoe....trust me... he is no good thing...

die... I tink Polar Bear hates me, lols, die...

Well, I duno wads up wif me this few days... I keep on slacking and slacking and slacking.... I just dun have the mood to go study at all ==

I duno!!!!! I duno!!!! I duno!!!!! I duno!!!!
This fews days, sooo many people are asking me to make decisions... the decisions are hard to make... Everyday, things get more and more complicated... and many many things are happening... making everyone feel so stressed out... some weird friendship problems... and school work is getting tougher... teachers are stressing us out... and parents are nagging... I have already sort of heck care SJAB alrdy, but then, there are still so many trainings... and then just a few days ago, or was it yesterday??? I was asked if I wanted to join comp.... I really duno duno duno.... my parents won't allow it =( and then.... haiz.... I am feeling really sad for my good friend... she is feeling very stressed out because of her parents... her parents just cannot trust her... she is holding sooo many posta in school, and she is doing very well in her studies, but her parents just keep on thinking that she is a bad kid =( tat is sad.... I shall try my best to help her.... haiz... I didn't even have time to meet up with the Plubylubybla people... Claudia pang, Jermaine Liew, Shi Qi, Berlyn Tan, Dylan, C.Bryan, Amos Cheng, Ethan Leong... man I miss u guys so badly =( even though I always see my school friends everyday, I wish that I can have fun with them everytime... haiz... people like, Vivian Lee, Tracy Koh, Esta Chew, Jody Ong, Celeste Lim, Cheong Jia Min, Annabel Leong, Koh Jia Lin, Juliana Lee, Jazreel Lim, Jesline Tan, Chen Rui Wen... the list goes on........ friends are important people too =)

I have decided to blog about my feelings... lols... lately, I was damn stressed out becos of the many homeworks... then Gan Sheng gave me a small keychain, which sorta cheered me up, cos its a keychain wif a smiley face, lols... hahas... anyways... I duno if I suld be happy now or wad... I really dislike the sec4 year... with the O'levels and everything... its terrible... and my bread buddy ain't helping... she keep talking bout HIM...

I know I am damn foolish at times... sometimes I dun care for the feelings of others and jus do wad I wan... and then I make everyone around me damn pissed... worse still I made him sad... I am damn dumb at times...

I am going to Oxford to study psychology... yeah... like real == okay, tats random :)

hahas... the guys created a retarded name for our clique... its called the PlubyLubyBla Clique... yes, it sounds retarded, i know... lols... they say we talk and chatter alot, therefore, we are PlubyLubyBla.... seriously, it makes no sense, its just some random name that the guys thought of... yeah... guys are weird...

Shit happens this few days... why do I have such weird parents??? haiz... and my family is omgosh weird... its more weirder than you can imagine...

LOLS... I duno if I suld be happy or sad leh... haiz... something new and irritating cropped out again... haiz... why always lidat one huh??? Is there a mysterious fella in my family??? wth... why is everything becoming soooo complicated and scary and weird??? I dun wana accept the fact...

woah... someone is too much liao la... first she wants our money, now she even want to decrease the pay of the staffs... wth is this sia??? You know my friend got so affected by this??? Have you ever cared about the feelings of others??? You think that decreasing the pay of the staffs very fun meh??? Firstly take student's money, now u want money from staffs too == my friend is damn sad now because you indirectly cause something terrible to happen to her...
And because you wanted to decrease his pay, thats why he wanted to leave the school... He wants to go some other school now, because you decreased his pay... wth... he is damn fed up with the pay decrease, he just doesn't want to show it... pls la... dun decrease ppl's pay can anot huh??? selfish freak...

supposed to be rushing homework now :/ die...

eh damn sian sia, Bear said that we have to complete the ten year series by friday...
Haven't get to kinow my cousin's O'level's results yet... but I very curious sia, I wan know how much he get, but I dun dare ask, cos ltr he tink I very kaypo.... AHHHH.... New Year coming... sian... means FAMILY GATHERING... FAMILY GATHERING means DIE... cos all the ppl. family or not family, all come to the chalet... walao... and create so much noise, and start comparing results.... sian.... especially My biggest ah beh, he like to compare our results... my 2nd ah beh is better... last ah beh is my father == haiz.... and then all my aunties oso whole day sit there play mahjong... walao... LOLS.... sian la... can I dun go??? I will see all my weird cousins and their weird girlfriends and boyfriends... omg.... NOOOOOOO

Feeling much better now, cos my buddy cheered me up again ^^ but today something terrible happened... haiz... I oso duno why they are anfry suddenly... so sad...
Anyways... My buddy help me out

Haiz... just realized something... I tink tat day, when Mrs Crossley cried, she cried becos she wanted us to buy the book, today Ah Beh was asking us to buy the book, walao... its $4 and Ah Beh say its cheaper compared to outside, but I took the book and see, inside the questions all like same as ten year series de leh... shit you la Ah Beh, duno how to ask tat money face to give us free meh??? So retarded....

NOW, I honestly am damn fed up wif somebody... you... are damn irritating... cos u told me not to make it so obvious, and you urself are making it obvious.... you tink tat ppl duno meh??? They are not as stupid as you okay... Dun act like my guardian... okay, shit u man... Stop giving me tat "are you okay?" look cos its non of ur business cos u r not my father or wadeva... U wan become my godfather, u go ask my parents' permission, this is epic == And u are such an act, infront of ppl and my friends, u act like u dun care who the toot I am and u get mad at the slightest mistake I make... then behind their back, u keep being nice.... I am seriously damn sick of it... it makes me feel tat you are some sicko or smtg... hey sicko... mr popular, quit your acting, get to ur job...

I am very bored now... bored by some ppl... pissing me off... and I am confused now... I should be doin my work horh? but wateva...

Finally know who are all my subject teachers...

ENGLISH: Mrs Cindy Soon
CHINESE: Mr Christopher Sim
ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS: MrYeo Ghee
ELEMENTARY MATHEMATICS: Mr Yeo Ghee
CHEMISTRY: Mrs Ng Peck Hoon
PHYSICS: Mr Pang Heng Cheun
SOCIAL STUDIES: Mrs Veronica Tjan
LITERATURE: Mrs Debra Tan
PHYSICAL EDUCATION: Mrs Davinia Wong

Walao eh, if I knew it, I would not have joined St John!!!!!!!!!!!!! St John has prevented me from doing sooooooo many things!!!! NOW, I cannot go for sec4 camp, because of St john...WTH is this sia???

First day of school today, the first part of school was okay, the second part was chaotic... I shall not talk bout the second part then...

My Form Teachers are : Mr Christopher Sim & Mrs Cindy Soon
English Teacher : Mrs Cindy Soon
Chinese Teacher : Mr Christopher Sim
Amaths Teacher : Mr Yeo Ghee
Emaths Teacher : Mr Yeo Ghee
Chemistry Teacher : UNKNOWN
Physics Teacher : UNKNOWN
Social Studies Teacher : UNKNOWN
Literature Teacher : UNKNOWN
PE Teacher : UNKNOWN

*there are so many UNKNOWNS because we have not recieved our timetable yet, though Mrs Cindy Soon promised us that she would give it to us today*

I feel like boxing someone's face at this moment =.= lols... nvm... hahas...

Do you know, there are many weird ppl in this world??? You just duno what are they thinking... you have to guess what is going through your mind... You duno if they are angry at you or wateva... And soon, you get fed up of trying to figure it out... then that person will start to think crazy things...


And do you know there are another type of weird ppl in this world?? They are super weird, becos you cannot believe what they say, because most of the things they say are fake... they will claim that they hate this person but the truth is they like that person a lot =.= hello, why can't you just admit that you like that person??? Since when did anyone say that liking someone is a SIN??? Since when did anyone said that "if you like this person, I shall put you into jail"??? Liking someone is not a sin... beocs it is not something that you can control


And do you know there are a new type of weird ppl in the world... they have two sides??? They can be smiling and laughing and joking infront of you, but behind your back... omg.. you duno wad evil things they may be doing...they spread rumours about you... they think that you suck... they secretly hate you... but when they are infront of you... they will be good friends with you, and be very nice to you... this type of ppl are DANGEROUS pls beware of this kind of ppl...

And there are still many weird ppl in this world....

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